Who are we kidding, I had nerves for the first 3 weeks! Leading up to my first interview and then my first day, I made myself sound confident through all communication. It’s easy to do until you meet face to face. The nerves, of course, build up and you feel as though this was a bad idea, “what am I doing? I’m not ready for this? Wasn’t it yesterday that I finished high school?” This is the thought that ran through my head and also made me want to run away! 

Then I remembered the saying; “fake it till you make it”, now I know in theory this may seem morally wrong but I looked at it as no one will believe in me if I don’t believe in myself. So I took a deep breath, considered that what will be is meant to be, and put one foot in front of the other. 

So it was a success and I got the internship, the butterflies fluttered away and I was instantly filled with excitement. Looking back you think how crazy it is that you stressed, overthought and worried. The first few days felt the same, it was always a little nerve-wracking but it also has been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. University has taught me a lot, I have learned more than I ever expected. At the end of the day, I’m more of a practical kinda gal! I’ve also enjoyed getting my hands dirty and diving into the deep end with my internship. I learned more in my first week of my internship than I have over my whole university experience. This is not a bad thing, for me, it was like a playing a new game. It takes a while to learn how to play, learn, receive hints and tricks of other player and then escalate to the success of winning the game. 

You are continuously learning interesting and useful facts that you know will help you in the future, you try to apply them in assignments but the feeling of being able to use them in real life as well as developing them has been amazing. 

I have also realized that the internship has been great for making mistakes. We all make mistakes and it great that we have the opportunity to undertake an internship while still at university. Of course, no one likes making mistakes but if I’m being honest, its good to make the mistakes now when I’m not being paid as it takes some stress off! I’m glad that I can learn and grow from the mistakes as I go