Surprisingly, the biggest source of my anxiety leading up to my first day at Corporate Sports Australia was what to wear. I didn’t feel stressed about whether I could handle tasks, or whether my work would meet their standard. I just didn’t know what to wear.

While trying on different outfits, feeling overdressed, or underdressed, or that I was trying too hard, it dawned on me. Maybe this wasn’t about clothes at all. Maybe I didn’t feel right in my clothes because I didn’t feel I was right to wear them. Like a child playing dress up.

The Pinterest board simultaneously helped and made me even more stressed

All my other blogs, social media posts, reports and articles had been written when I was wearing pyjamas or whatever I could throw on before uni. All those posts were really just all pretend, even if I wasn’t playing dress up. Putting on those clothes made it feel all the more real. This could be the doorway to my future career. So why wouldn’t I want to dress the part? In the end, I did put on an outfit that felt comfortable and confident in.

My first day didn’t bring anything out of the ordinary. I knew how to write a good and engaging social media post. I knew how to adapt messages for different platforms. It was easy, I had it in the bag. Turns out those ‘pretend’ posts and articles and all the rest weren’t just for the sake of it. All that anxiety for nothing!

I will say that the most daunting part of my first day was calling entrants for a Perth Garden festival competition and confirming whether we had their details right. Why is a phone call so scary? I have a background in retail and customer service – so why was making a few phone calls so daunting? Especially when they couldn’t even see the outfit that I stressed over so desperately.

All-in-all I had a good first day. I’m really looking forward to the rest of the placement. I can only expect that as it gets closer to the Perth Garden Festival my tasks will get more exciting and fast paced. I can’t wait. Until next time…

Oh! I forgot to mention – everyone else in the office was wearing jeans and a nice t-shirt, so it turns out I was dressed okay after all!

Let me know if you had a similar stress attack over something silly before starting your internship! I’d love to hear that I’m not alone!